Thursday, December 20, 2012

its just a phase

Teenagers that was or were in love will always go through this phase of *drum rolls pls* Heartbroken. Ahhhhhhhhhh sick Im sick of every-thing-about-love. Ceh *ayat sakit hati* Love is good when it is right. Remember tht. After the second time in a row being cheated on (not to mention a very, very hmmm _____ relationship) I know he will always told me that it is my fault. Fine. It is my fault. I agree! (ha ha) But still, who was the first place to cheat? Like, twice? My head was spinning and I kept repeating...... ''I can't believe this is happening again, I can't believe this is happening again.....'' I thought I had met ''Mr. Right''......I know what you guys are this age? Probably no right? Yes. It turned out to be just a big, ugly mess. Its not a mistake. It is not. Really. Its a beautiful mistake. Really truly beautiful mistake. Am I being exaggerate? Tell me not! Being cheated on is the ultimate betrayal. But when it happened to me twice in a row, I was forced to take a long, hard look at myself. Tell the thruth, I still text him or whatever but after what had happened yesterday, its all over. He said.

Okay, back on track. What I found was being cheated on is like traumatic. The suspicions, the lies, the fights (which is the worst thing) and the moment of finding out. Yes, to-him-who-shouldnt-be-named, thanks for being completely honest. I must give you my standing ovation for that. Would my mine? *standing ovation* Okay Im done. He dont tell, I found it by myself who is that lucky girl. Congratulatuions, girl HOOOOO RAY for you. In some small way, it still stings sometimes to think about it. Whatever. It doesnt mean anything. Just because its still hurts doesnt mean I miss the relationship or him. Just that it hurt. And sucked. There's countless questions in my head Is she prettier, smartier, funnier, etc etc etc etc. and on and on until my head would explode! There is no definite answer. I'll go bananas trying to find it. Ha ha but I wont. Being cheated is incredibly hurtful. It is not only selfish but cruel.

To be completely honest because I never be honest before this. ( I AM JUST KIDDING) I was heartbroken, vulnerable, and yes, a little desperate. I have to open my eyes like really wide O.O and deal with it. What goes around comes around. One question, Does karma exist? It would be glad if Karma exist. Ha ha :C

Currently listening to Sayang - Shae. Oh shut up. /annoyed/

Tuesday, December 4, 2012


Dear you,
       I cant wait to meet you. Been waiting for almost two years maybe? Hehe I can't wait can't wait can't wait! And pls, jgn botak? Eh? Hahaha



Hmm yeah ummm ahh? Hmmm uhhh ughh yeah hmm uhh huuu.
Haaaaaaaa?! Forget it. Tht moment when you get this random mood to write. Yes. To just write without even thinking..How I wish! Ths is just some itsy bitsy part of my holiday and opps! Forgot. BORING holiday. Yess I must admit T.T Hehe Spending time with my friends Anissa, Syed, Syazwina and Sarah. They just made my holiday seems much worth it.

Okay on Mond naik Bukit Pelindung and turun TC! Pergh! Mantap habis! Best gila! Hahaha lenjun baju and the most exciting part ada kabus dan hujan. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh heaven~ Tapi takdelah lebat and continuously hujan just drizzling and berhenti lps tu drizzling blik. The precious moment was masa dah nak turun Telok Chempedak tu dgr ombak...ahh sgt sgt sgt sgt best!


Rakan ekspedisiku haha Anissa takde dia tlg amik gmbr

Yes me again..Kata blog Ai? Hahaha Time ni senarnya tgh penat then rehat kejap sambil minum 100plus and mkn M&m's haha

Okay rasa mcm jakun sungguh bila smpi TC sbb lama tak jenguk hehehe Dan jakun sbb first time jungle trekking maybe? No!!! I mean it wasn't my first time jungle trekking.......first time je buat aktiviti mcm ni kat TC hehe Okay? Wht am I...........................zzz mengarut. Till here. Bye and Assalamualaikum.